Better, but not so much

It has been a long time since I've posted! I've been keeping tabs on myself, keeping tabs on my issues, and I have to say I am doing MUCH better. I've started at the gym again, work is fantastic, life is great....except of course for the Boy. He's out of work, for the third time in less than a year, he's trying to find work, but not trying hard enough. I am so sick of bearing the financial burden of this family, so sick of all of my success going down the toilet because I have to care for him. When we moved a year ago, I told him we HAD to split things 50/50, or else. Here we are a year later, and I'm bearing more of the burden than I ever have. I don't think this is the way things are supposed to be. I think a lot of my problems and issues stem from frustration, er, buried frustration over this ongoing problem. I know I should have laid down the law way back in the day when we first moved in together, I shouldn't have been so lenient, so accommodating--but I was, because I was young, naive, and in love. And now it's snowballed into a huge problem that we can't really discuss, because I've tried--he says he'll work on it, and never does.